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Friday, July 31, 2009

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Destiny and The Hand Dealt


On our last night in Newfoundland, my eldest son broke all our hearts by beginning to cry, hard. Tears running down my own face, I held him tight, told him what his blood already knows: it's a special place.

"It's always hard to leave," I told him. "It never gets easier."

I kissed his salty hair, unwashed in who knows how many days, cupped his face in my hands and looked deep into his eyes. Crying makes them greener, like my own.

I smiled.

"It's hard," I repeated. "But I can never be sorry I left this place, because when I left it, I met you."

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Blogger Lindsay said...

That is a great response. I remember crying once as my mom packed up the minivan after a 2 week vacation in southern Ontario to visit her family for similar reasons when I was about nine or ten, and it was time to make the 4 day trek west to BC again. Double edged sword, this leaving the hometown thing.

Hope you all have a couple days to recuperate now..

10:23 AM  
Blogger Cor said...

you just made me all lumpy in my throat.

can i just say how much i love your writing? it's awesome. inspiring.

3:49 PM  
Blogger Tena Laing said...

We have always bawled our guts out leaving Newfoundland each summer. We'd have a big posse of relatives at the tiny airport all sniffling away, and trying to be happy for us. That's the hard thing about NFLD - so many people have to go away. But we're all pulled back too. Love how you expressed this.

3:54 PM  
Blogger lenniekat said...

truly amazing, concise writing, kyran. like an arrow. *sniff*

5:13 PM  
Blogger Amy B. said...

How sweet, how sad.

But may I selfishly say how glad I am that you're back?

7:36 PM  
Blogger Janie Blagg said...

How sweet! And, what a great response! Welcome back to Arkansas!

8:36 PM  
Blogger K said...

What a beautiful thought.

6:47 AM  
Blogger Cassie said...


10:26 AM  
Blogger HaikuKelly said...

Awww. What a great sentiment. And a great image!

9:22 AM  
Blogger Schmutzie said...

I don't know why, maybe it's the antihistamines kicking in, but this post suddenly had me gasping back tears. So bittersweet with sweeter leanings.

5:04 PM  
Blogger Elizabeth said...

it's so difficult to leave -- we always have the same experience when we leave my parents home and all of my family and my children's cousins -- bittersweet and melancholy

11:11 PM  

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